been wanting to post this entry many days ago..but i never really knew how to go about writing it until now...

夜黑夜寂寞的夜里 气生气对自己生气

sometimes i wonder if i should be so foolish, every lonely night i start thinking of you...makes me wonder if you ever really think of me...why is it that every time i log onto facebook, i will always see your entries...when i keep promising myself i should not read..but in the end i still read...wanting to know more about you from a distance..but do you ever read the entries i posted...

我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道 世界若是那麽大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道 世界若是那麽小为何我的真心你听不到

i am not sure if i had done so..but i always tried to help you when you needed help..and there is no one around to help you...i always tried to keep you in sight and when there is problem and no one can help you, i will..even though you never ever approached me for any help..you would rather ask the others and talk to others but remain silent with me...the more silent you are around me, the more i do not know how to approach you and the more distant we are from each other...but do you know how i feel really deep down in my heart??

現在也只能欣賞　唯一的合照一張 淡忘了的是那個街角　想念的是當時的微笑

once before i thought we were friendly with each other..but now merely silence left between us..i wonder what made us grew apart but i never really can find the answer..maybe i am the one who started being silent as we saw each other less last time...but now when we can see each other more...and when i start feeling for you...i can look at the photo we took before together and just think..without knowing how to make us closer again

如果有一天　我們再見面　時間會不會倒退一點 也許我們都忽略　互相傷害之外的感覺
如果哪一天　我們都發現　好聚好散不過是種遮掩 如果我們沒發現　就給彼此多一點時間

last night...i felt really bad..seeing you being so close to others while i sat near yet felt so far..and really even though i have done my best....even doing things that i thought would make you happy, i never got back a word of thanks or yup you never even bother to approach me and ask me if i want to join you guys for dinner..so maybe i think i should give up and let go...

時光是琥珀 淚一滴滴 被反鎖
情書在不朽 也磨成沙漏

青春的上游 白雲飛走 蒼狗與海鷗
閃過的念頭 潺潺的溜走
命運好幽默 讓愛的人都沉默
一整個宇宙 換一顆紅豆

回憶如困獸　寂寞太久 而漸漸溫柔
放開了拳頭 反而更自由

慢動作 繾綣膠卷 重播默片 定格一瞬間

我們在告別的演唱會 說好不再見
你寫給我 我的第一首歌
你和我十指緊扣 默寫前奏
可是那然後呢
還好我有 我這一首情歌
輕輕的輕輕哼著 哭著笑著
我的 天長地久

命運好幽默 讓愛的人都沉默
一整個宇宙 換一顆紅豆

回憶如困獸 寂寞太久 而漸漸溫柔
放開了拳頭 反而更自由

長鏡頭 越拉越遠 越來越遠 事隔好幾年
我們在懷念的演唱會 禮貌地吻別

你寫給我 我的第一首歌
你和我十指緊扣 默寫前奏
可是那然後呢
還好我有 我這一首情歌
輕輕的輕輕哼著 哭著笑著
我的 天長地久

陪我唱歌 清唱你的情歌
捨不得 短短副歌
心還熱著 也該告一段落
還好我有 我下一首情歌
生命宛如 靜靜的 相擁的河
永遠 天長地久

i will always try to be nice to you, but you never really know and understand...or even appreciate..maybe you take my niceness for granted and maybe even if i am not nice to you, maybe someone else will...so you will never ever wonder that one day i will be tired and i will no longer help you....maybe it does not mean anything to you....

i always wonder why is it that it is so difficult to find someone who will love me and whom i love as well..but my roommates told me last night that it IS difficult..so hard..sometimes happiness can be simple yet so far to reach....when can i ever write the love song with the person i love??

perhaps letting go is what i have to do now....i have so many nice friends around me and yes, probably you shall stay as a friend who is so distant that i may forget...the world's cruelest thing is that we may be so close physically but our hearts are so far apart...but i will have to bear with it...

changing an environment doesn't help..love never work out for me in singapore, korea and now even my last haven taiwan remain a place of heart-breaking...yet i know i have the support of friends and family members around me :)