courage

courage is something we all need yet lack sometimes...

courage allows us to do things so that we would not regret later...

lack of courage makes us indecisive and we would be regretting why we had not done so..

i regretted that my lack of courage did not allow me to tell you i love you earlier...

now that i have plucked up my courage to like you, you avoid me and ignore me...

but i hope that i will still have the courage to hold on...hoping that one day we will meet again and i can love you once more

for now, we have to say goodbye

ballet and my love

went to ballet under the stars on saturday...it was a very good concert...the dancers were all very professional and their elegant movements really struck a chord with the audience..

haha there were many kids running around the area..well it was the first time i went for an outdoor picnic event and almost fogot that it was general admission, meaning no seats..couldn't find any picnic mat so we had to sit on cardboards..lol me, yan ling and yihui haha

the kids were very lively, dancing to the music and i even saw a pair of them dancing down the steps..maybe future budding talents are produced at such events when they fall in love with dance..were you also the same at their age??

best thing was when i went to the lucky draw booth..the girl at the booth muttered "omg, it is a guy" well guess i must be the first guy whom they see at a ballet concert -.-''' despite the mosquitoes swarming, it was an enjoyable experience sitting in open air, watching ballet...haha had to move up and down a lot as well as children try to pass me on their way to the toilet..

as i stared at the stage, i imagine her dancing on it..walking on her toes at the sound of the music..shuffling her steps..gliding across the stage..i kept looking around, but there were just too many people, hoping to spot her among the crowd, but i was disappointed...i have been parying since morning, hoping that we can chance upon each other

nowadays, i have been sleeping like a pig..just last last sunday, i slept almost 18 hours straight...maybe because i am feeling tired...or because everytime i sleep, i can dream about you...and when i wake up..i could not see you..so i would rather sleep and think about you...

went back to RJ last monday as well...saw the biodiversity pond..well kinda strange seeing a sort of new ecosystem in our school and also strange rules like no tapaoing food outside of canteen..no buying drinks after 7 pm etc..was joking with my friends, alex, xt and jonny as we sat down to talk about it...

change is bound to happen sometimes..maybe i am not one who adapts well to changes..i misses the old school days where we used to sit around, hang around, studying etc..those were the days, my friends, that we have come to cherish as we move on..why i did not get to know him/her better during our school days...why didn't we take part in that? etc..

for me..why didn't i tell you that i love you earlier..will it change anything?? i promise that no matter what happens, i will never blame you or dislike you, i will always keep you in a place of my heart, thinking of the fond memories..and hoping that one day, we can still share our happiness, joy and everything, no matter how insignificant together...i will continue loving you cos my heart has already been filled by you

爱你,
不是因为你的美和影
我越来越爱你,
每个眼神触动我的心
因为你让我看见forever
才了解自己,
未来这些日子
要好好珍惜

爱我
有些痛苦有些不公平
如果真的爱我
不是理所当然的决定
感到你的呼吸在我耳边
像微风深情
温柔的安抚,
我的不安定
所以我要
每年研究你的笑容
wo~~
多么自然

forever love forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后,
你会是所有
幸福的理由

爱情,
是场最美最远的旅行
沿途遇经泥泞
偶尔阻碍我们的前进
感到你的体温在我怀里
像阳光和煦
巧妙的熔化
我的不安定
不可思议
证明我爱你的理由
wo
多么自然
你感动的眼睛,
我沉默的声音,
仿佛就是最好的证明
就让我再说一次
ilove you ~~
直到永远
oh
forever love
forever love
forever love

Forever loving you...even if you might not feel it...

my project superstar has already been completed...=) let it be my last tenderness to you before we say goodbye bah

忘了有多久 再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了甚么

It has been a long time since you last wrote to me...telling me about what you have been doing, replying to my silly mails...

i thought and thought, maybe i did something wrong that irritated you or made you feel unhappy that you are ignoring me...


你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

i was never your prince before and you have never said that you liked me..so i should never had imagine that our story can be fairy-tale like..


我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手 变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写 我们的结局

but i still hope that i can become the angel to protect you..you must believe that i can do that and that i will continue to think of you each day you are not by my side...


i watched a program recently that said that being too ingrateful or too loving, will scare off the person you like...being too loving, the person won't know what to do if she/he should accept you out of sympathy or just to reciprocate for the sake of reciprocating...in the end, she/he will shun you...

i have already tried my best..she lives for dance, not for me..all this is just my imagination...i should not deceive myself anymore....

just hope that you can receive my last tenderness for you and keep me in a corner of your heart, that would be enough..

你总是心太软 心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮词
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强

你总是心太软 心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单 相处太难
不是你的 就别再勉强

夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想他吗?
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分　
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼　
你应该不会只想作个好人　

哦算了吧 就这样忘了吧　
该放就放 再想也没有用　
傻傻等待 他也不会回来　
你总该为自己想想未来

你总是心太软 心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮词
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强

你总是心太软 心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单 相处太难
不是你的 就别再勉强

Really i must learn to let go slowly...不是你的 就别再勉强