Stay

Stay 因为夜太美
寂寞的月亮
需要星星陪

Stay 不管夜多黑
不管天会亮
不去想明天

带我飞
远远的
到天涯
到海角
浩瀚的
天际里
只要有你陪
也许苦
也许甜
不害怕
不后悔
因为爱
让我们再也分不开

(Just) Stay
Stay 因为夜太美
寂寞的月亮
需要星星陪

Stay 就算是不对
就算是沉伦
错误也是美

带我飞
远远的
到天涯
到海角
浩瀚的
天际里
只要有你陪
也许苦
也许甜
不害怕
不后悔
因为爱
让我们再也分不开

(Just) Stay Stay
带我飞
远远的
到天涯
到海角
浩瀚的
天际里
只要有你陪
也许苦
也许甜
不害怕
不后悔
因为爱
让我们再也分不开
(Just) Stay Stay

how i wish you can stay by my side or i can stay by your side but that dream seems further away now

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me...

happy birthday to me =)

i am 21..whoohoo can finally vote?? can finally watch r21 movies???(well the artistic ones of course)

my first birthday wish is for my family to be happy and stay healthy, all my family members can be blessed..

my second birthday wish is secret

my third birthday wish is for me to reflect on my past and plan for the future..with hope and what has beens are already in the past..i must learn to look forward =)

had a blessed day with my mum today..very happy now

身為一道彩虹　雨過了就該閃亮整片天空
讓我深愛的你感到光榮

身為一道彩虹　盡全力也要換你一段笑容
夠了　我愛你　不必人懂　

只要不醒過來　這就不是夢
請看著我　請擁抱我　體溫別流走

好多話想說　好多事要做
請天空給我　請時間給我　再多一點停留

親愛的你　若有感動　請牢記在心中
下一次下雨　你能看見的　那道彩虹　不再可能是我

i just ran teh mizuno wave run today..it is an ORD celebration as well as for you..a form of farewell bah..i ran and ran and the pain in my legs cannot rival the pain in my heart as i now have to learn to say goodbye to you even though i am still thinking and dreaming of you every day and night

but time will heal everything and i hope to find my next rainbow

self reflection when alone

can't forget you

you took me on a roller coaster ride
your smile makes me high
your tears make me cry
i just wanna stay by your side

will i ever see your laughter
will we ever be together
all the answers sail into never
but i will wait for you forever

can you stop saying i'm nice
can you stop saying being friends will suffice
everytime i see you with other guys
my heart just break into a million pieces

i walk alone on the streets
thinking why i can't forget you
i can't understand why i lost my love
i shoudl stop imagining the answers

everywhere i turn i see happiness
people around me singing
people aroudn me joking
but i just drown myself in sadness

there is noone standing by my side
just a can of beer lying on the right
my heart just feel so tight
as i bid you goodbye tonight

watch you go on your way
in other guy's arms you sway
i decide that i won't stay
all the love i show do not pay

when i thought there was hope
i was all but a dope
i should clean my eyes with soap
and see that the answer will be nope


i think it is time for me to let go..two plus years i have liked you..and two plus years i have pressurised you, perhaps letting you go is the best both for me and you...i am sorry for hurting you, i am sorry for stressing you

知足

五月天 知足

怎麼去拥有 一道彩虹
怎麼去拥抱 一夏天的风
天上的星星 笑地上的人
总是不能懂 不能知道足够

如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎麼收藏 要怎麼拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有

当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终於你身影 消失在人海尽头 才发现 笑著哭 最痛

那天你和我 那个山丘 那样的唱著 那一年的歌
那样的回忆 那麼足够 足够我天天 都品嚐著寂寞

当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终於你身影 消失在人海尽头 才发现 笑著哭 最痛

如果我爱上 你的笑容 要怎麼收藏 要怎麼拥有
如果你快乐 不是为我 会不会放手 其实才是拥有

知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛

this song reflects my mood now..everyone is telling me to let go..i will find a more suitable person in the future..i like her but now i think i can only let go now..

i promise her that i would make her happy..and now i think i have failed in my task because of my persistence and now she is annoyed..i thought that fate would bring us together again and that we can have a future together..but..sigh..

i really thought i can forget about her but after so long, i still can't..australia is not so far away yet i feel that we are now so far apart..now i can only learn to let go because i promise her to make her smile yet i cannot keep my promise..now letting go probably is the best thing to make her feel happy and stay cheerful..

i would rather be the one bearing all the pain and feeling sad rather than making her unhappy so if letting go will allow me to achieve that goal..maybe i will have to be determined enough to do it

courage

courage is something we all need yet lack sometimes...

courage allows us to do things so that we would not regret later...

lack of courage makes us indecisive and we would be regretting why we had not done so..

i regretted that my lack of courage did not allow me to tell you i love you earlier...

now that i have plucked up my courage to like you, you avoid me and ignore me...

but i hope that i will still have the courage to hold on...hoping that one day we will meet again and i can love you once more

for now, we have to say goodbye

ballet and my love

went to ballet under the stars on saturday...it was a very good concert...the dancers were all very professional and their elegant movements really struck a chord with the audience..

haha there were many kids running around the area..well it was the first time i went for an outdoor picnic event and almost fogot that it was general admission, meaning no seats..couldn't find any picnic mat so we had to sit on cardboards..lol me, yan ling and yihui haha

the kids were very lively, dancing to the music and i even saw a pair of them dancing down the steps..maybe future budding talents are produced at such events when they fall in love with dance..were you also the same at their age??

best thing was when i went to the lucky draw booth..the girl at the booth muttered "omg, it is a guy" well guess i must be the first guy whom they see at a ballet concert -.-''' despite the mosquitoes swarming, it was an enjoyable experience sitting in open air, watching ballet...haha had to move up and down a lot as well as children try to pass me on their way to the toilet..

as i stared at the stage, i imagine her dancing on it..walking on her toes at the sound of the music..shuffling her steps..gliding across the stage..i kept looking around, but there were just too many people, hoping to spot her among the crowd, but i was disappointed...i have been parying since morning, hoping that we can chance upon each other

nowadays, i have been sleeping like a pig..just last last sunday, i slept almost 18 hours straight...maybe because i am feeling tired...or because everytime i sleep, i can dream about you...and when i wake up..i could not see you..so i would rather sleep and think about you...

went back to RJ last monday as well...saw the biodiversity pond..well kinda strange seeing a sort of new ecosystem in our school and also strange rules like no tapaoing food outside of canteen..no buying drinks after 7 pm etc..was joking with my friends, alex, xt and jonny as we sat down to talk about it...

change is bound to happen sometimes..maybe i am not one who adapts well to changes..i misses the old school days where we used to sit around, hang around, studying etc..those were the days, my friends, that we have come to cherish as we move on..why i did not get to know him/her better during our school days...why didn't we take part in that? etc..

for me..why didn't i tell you that i love you earlier..will it change anything?? i promise that no matter what happens, i will never blame you or dislike you, i will always keep you in a place of my heart, thinking of the fond memories..and hoping that one day, we can still share our happiness, joy and everything, no matter how insignificant together...i will continue loving you cos my heart has already been filled by you

爱你,
不是因为你的美和影
我越来越爱你,
每个眼神触动我的心
因为你让我看见forever
才了解自己,
未来这些日子
要好好珍惜

爱我
有些痛苦有些不公平
如果真的爱我
不是理所当然的决定
感到你的呼吸在我耳边
像微风深情
温柔的安抚,
我的不安定
所以我要
每年研究你的笑容
wo~~
多么自然

forever love forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后,
你会是所有
幸福的理由

爱情,
是场最美最远的旅行
沿途遇经泥泞
偶尔阻碍我们的前进
感到你的体温在我怀里
像阳光和煦
巧妙的熔化
我的不安定
不可思议
证明我爱你的理由
wo
多么自然
你感动的眼睛,
我沉默的声音,
仿佛就是最好的证明
就让我再说一次
ilove you ~~
直到永远
oh
forever love
forever love
forever love

Forever loving you...even if you might not feel it...

my project superstar has already been completed...=) let it be my last tenderness to you before we say goodbye bah

忘了有多久 再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了甚么

It has been a long time since you last wrote to me...telling me about what you have been doing, replying to my silly mails...

i thought and thought, maybe i did something wrong that irritated you or made you feel unhappy that you are ignoring me...


你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了

i was never your prince before and you have never said that you liked me..so i should never had imagine that our story can be fairy-tale like..


我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手 变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写 我们的结局

but i still hope that i can become the angel to protect you..you must believe that i can do that and that i will continue to think of you each day you are not by my side...


i watched a program recently that said that being too ingrateful or too loving, will scare off the person you like...being too loving, the person won't know what to do if she/he should accept you out of sympathy or just to reciprocate for the sake of reciprocating...in the end, she/he will shun you...

i have already tried my best..she lives for dance, not for me..all this is just my imagination...i should not deceive myself anymore....

just hope that you can receive my last tenderness for you and keep me in a corner of your heart, that would be enough..

你总是心太软 心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮词
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强

你总是心太软 心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单 相处太难
不是你的 就别再勉强

夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想他吗?
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分　
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼　
你应该不会只想作个好人　

哦算了吧 就这样忘了吧　
该放就放 再想也没有用　
傻傻等待 他也不会回来　
你总该为自己想想未来

你总是心太软 心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮词
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强

你总是心太软 心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单 相处太难
不是你的 就别再勉强

Really i must learn to let go slowly...不是你的 就别再勉强

Christine Da'ae - Think of Me Lyrics

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .

Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard
to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do -
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you . . .

Long ago, it seems so long ago
How young and innocent we were...
She may not remember me,
but I remember her...

Flowers fades,
The fruits of summer fade,
They have their seasons, so do we
but please promise me, that sometimes
you will think of me!

i hope you can think of me even though we may be so far apart...

p.s. i love you

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.

When Death to either shall come -- I pray it be first to you, because i would rather stay and endure the loneliness in this world then make you suffer.

And if it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true. In this life, I was loved by you.

If rain drops were kisses,I could send you showers. if hugs were seas i send you oceans. and if love was a person i send you me!!

i love you my dearest, maybe you won't even know of this place but i want to tell you that i will always love you deep down in my heart =)

A short tale

Once upon a time, there lived a frog.

He was a little thing, with a happy family and friends around. He was also a proud frog and imagined his shock when he was drafted into the dance group when he was in school..a choice he never made but was forced to take.

He was unhappy in dance, being scared that people would mock him and laugh at him. He would not want to go for dance practices and always had to be dragged there.

However, as days got past, he begin to like dance more and more...the people there made him feel at home and he really found good friends there..he even got to know a junior whom he found elegant and yet humorous...

They always tease each other...he will laugh at the way she walk, always with her feet wide apart, toe pointing towards the side...while she will call him tianji...

Before they part, the girl wrote him a post card, telling him that he will see her walking the most beautiful catwalk ever...one day. He kept the postcard and hope that he can really see her before his eyes again..

He never knew that the little princess will leave him for another country to further her studies...
he thought that there is no chance for them to meet again until the princess ask him about his hometown taiwan..he was very happy, he created an itinerary for the princess and yet he was sad because he couldn't be there to bring her around..

When she came back from Taiwan, he made use of an opportunity to ask the junior out for dinner..he can still remember the place where they ate and what happened that day...her slippers broke..he felt helpless..but she was very brave..she tied her hairband to the slipper so she cans till walk but it was the end of the outing...and it was the last outing

He can confirm his feelings for the princess now...so the little frog asked the princess for her hand..however, she rejected him..and weeks later, she departed for another place to study...the little frog misses her so much...

They remain in contact with each other..but the little frog's thoughts constantly drifted to her...he began to withdraw himself and put her in a special place in his heart..he clung to the belief that the princess will one day kiss him so that he can become a prince...

His friends keep advising him to let go..but he finds it hard to do so...when the princess doesn't reply him for months, he felt very sad...when the princess wrote a reply, no matter how short it maybe, he will always feel happy as it contain information about his loved one...he is truly in love with the princess

The little frog has made up his mind to continue to wait for his princess..just like in the fairy tale, waiting for a happy ending..even though the wait will be long and he may be heartbroken in the end..he hopes that the princess can give him an answer...

The previous week has been a lousy week!

First, we had a lot of shifting to do in camp and during one of the shifting, a metal cupboard fell and crushed my left hand against another metal cupboard..

then on friday, my sister got admitted into changi general hospital for dengue...luckily i didn't have mob manning that day...

sigh the hospital staff seems very unfriendly and the doctor doesn't seem to answer questions..fortunately my sister is alright now..

then i went CO concert to watch yifang perform..sigh the next morning..i woke up with avery bad sore throat that i am still suffering from now..

not to mention tons of work in camp to do and my OA is still not up yet..still spoilt..sigh

and i have not gotten her email for quite some time already..i hope she will reply me soon.. =(

went to clarke quay with my friends on friday night...

met at 9.30 at clarke quay station...

spent more than on ehour deciding where to go haha cos we think that fashion bar is too quiet and elegant for us.., i dislike crazy elephant cos the service there is bad..., the pump room has a long queue..., we could not go clubbing cos of improper attire as well as i am leaving real soon,...highlander has no more seats...so we decided on hooters'..which has the infamous reputation of you know what lol...

anyway that's part of our condition too..we must be able to see girls and although i am not too keen on the idea, we embarked on our search for the perfect bar...


quite cheap considering we hit happy hour so we ordered two jugs of 64 oz tiger beer and got one jug free and each jug is only $38.00..anyway i only had time to take one glass before i left cos i had forgotten to bring my house keys along and i don't want to get locked out of my house..

i guess i must have drank too fast, a glass in 3 gurps and after i left, i felt my face getting redder then a tomato..but also partly due to fatigue, i plonked onto my bed and fell asleep straight away...

anyway been trying to figure out taiwanese maths which is kinda challenging considering that they learn many things we don't learn here in singapore..my head is going to explode from the various new formulas...sigh but i must still try because the exam is coming soon..

darn..i have sneezed at least 5 times today..i think i am getting sick..went to cut my hair to prepare for the muster parade and oh man i also need to clean my bunk tonight because of area inspection =(

On Friday, i went to watch Red Cliff 2 with Benjamin, Cedrick and Costa at SHAW Bugis. For someone who never watch Red Cliff 1 like me, i also don't know why i was crazy enough to watch part 2..maybe because i was quite bored and the movie seemed so highly rated, so i thought watching it would be fun and see the realistic scenes that i had imagined coming alive from the books that i have read.

But it was kinda disappointing, maybe because i am a traditional person? i thought the fighting scenes would be like what the book described, but in the end i felt like i was watching real life video game...i didn't know that Sun Shang Xiang can also fight..okay maybe the director doesn't want to just show the men fighting and the women just wandering around but seriously some parts just look like video game Three Kingdom...like for example Zhao Yun and Zhang Fei were shot but will not die..and their solo fighting skill on the ground seriously reminded me of Three Kingdom where they do back-flips despite their heavy gear and slash through their enemies..

anyway, prefer Cyborg She which i watched on Youtube yesterday. A very touching movie and i like the melodious sound track...the main character of the story was a poor soul who celebrates his birthday alone until a Cyborg sent by the future HIM came to accompany him..unfortunately she can't feel his love until the Cyborg tried her best, maiming her lower body to save the guy..and years later, a girl who had the same looks as the robot bidded for the robot's memory chip and was touched by the story..she travelled back in time to accompany Jiro...tells us that true love need not be said everyday..true love will touch everyone's heart, even the heartless...i think it is by far one of teh best movies i have ever watched..really regretted not watching it in cinema...sigh..

true love is hard to find, after watching the movie, i found myself jealous of the main character...he has finally found his true love but i am still here waiting for my true love...a girl whom i had let go too easily, whom i did not treasure in the past and let her slipped through my fingers...she always call me tianji (frog)..and i would always tease her walking..would always try to correct her walking...now the tianji is still here while the princess had left..when will i see you do the catwalk you promised me? will the princess return to kiss the tianji so that he can become a prince and they both can live happily ever after or will the frog remain a frog throughout his life and stay at the bottom of the well?

with or without love, life goes on. that's what my friend told me..i mustn't think too much, just carry on in life and fate will take its course..i am glad that i have so many friends around me supporting me =) i will be strong..and continue to wait for her to say yes one day..

寒风吹起 细雨迷离
风雨揭开我的记忆
我像小船 寻找港湾
不能把你忘记

爱的希望
爱的回味
爱的往事难以追忆

风中花蕊
深怕枯萎
我愿为你祝福

我爱你 我心已属於你
今生今世不移
在我心中 再没有谁
代替你的地位

我爱你 对你付出真意
不会飘浮不定
你要为我
再想一想
我决定爱你一万年

02 jan 09

a brand new milestone in the history of dunman high school and i am proud to witness it. Dunman High school finally shifted back to the new renovated campus at tanjong rhu from the mount sinai temporary campus. 2nd january 09 is the first day of school, also the home coming celebration of dunman high. heard from selina about the event and decided to go back..took "off" haha..besides i can get a long weekend..

the new dunman high definitely look very big, lol as xinyu, yanling, yihui, yifang, lihui and me can testify as we wandered the grounds trying to hunt for mr kiw..and have to admit, the color scheme went wrong i guess cos the painting doesn't look too good..but well overall i am glad that the school moved back..the concert was superb!! i am really proud of our juniors in dance as well as the other performances and i really see a vibrant side of dunman high school...

i also saw a lot of friends, my 4B classmates, my sec 2 classmates, my cca mates, seniors, juniors as well as teachers..it was really very nostalgic walking around in a place i once called school, where i once studied in, where i had many fond memories..i remember the porch in front of 2d classroom where we did rehearsals for national day and teachers' day celebrations..i remember the corridor in front of 4b classroom where we used to hang out and talk crap..our old classrooms where we has remedial lessons and where we spent two years together...whether happy or sad...i miss the extension where we had dance practices i miss the old hall where we always have da4 zu3 huo2 dong4..after walking in the school, memories seems to flood back..old memories that i have shelved away for so long and i thought that i had missed..my memory must be getting worst..sigh...my dearest girl, remember we were once from this school? we knew each other for three years in the school...i wasn't sure of my feelings for you then but now that i have confirmed..you are so far away already..how i wish that i would have let you know then..i want to walk with you in the school again..

03 jan 09

yesterday was class outing at marina square..as i was walking to the mrt station, i suddenly saw a porsche suv drove past and i was wondering if that was cheo's car when i saw him waving at me..lol how coincidental lol..at marina square we went to eat kenny rogers lol..they highly recommended the macaroni and cheese as the sides which is too cheesy for my stomach..but the roast chicken is superb..then after that we wanted to go k box..but then too expensive so we did pool instead haha... which is fun ahah jonny did amazing shots...and charmander that lousy woman keep complaining that i wear saf sandals..sigh ok lah i admit i am poor lol..but i also need to go buys shoes haha..

i will continue to wait here..be the familiar tianji that you always call me...hoping one day you will become my princess =)

Vaness Wu - My Friend

Goodbye my friend 直到那天　我們真的再見
我會想念　非常想念　希望你在我身邊

Oh my friend 把今天都對摺
存在感覺紀念　朋友是
這生命的伏線　無論怎樣多變　永遠連接

要再見　這是一種諾言
等待我們兌現　超越所有挑戰

朋友是　一輩子的事業
眼神就能了解　不用多言

要再見　這是一種諾言
等待我們兌現　超越所有挑戰

朋友是　一輩子的時間
一首歌的思念　溫暖一切

For auld lang syne.For auld lang syne,
my dear, For auld lang syne,

We’ll tak’a cup o’kindness yet,
For auld lang syne.Sing along now......

O.S.會有那麼的一天吧　我依然有好多好多的事
想第一個告訴你　但發現　你已經不在我身邊
不能天天見面了　我會有點孤單的
I keep you in my prayers...


a song that just sprung into my midn when i went back dunman high to attend home coming..seeing so many friends around... it is uber-cool..