haha it has been a long time since i last blogged...well according to records, since last year september..

so here i am in office feeling bored and so decided, hey why not, let's blog!!

anyway the past few days i was being stupid...feeling emo and dao-ing almost everyone around me except my family whom will definitely ask if i suddenly turn all quiet and emo..

so i feel super bad to my colleagues who bore brunt and also my friends whom i had met up if i did..

well after three years, i have finally decided to end it all..because i finally realise that there is no point anymore..people have been telling me that since forever ago but only now then i realised. dumm, nicht?

well..that's because to me she was like the water and i am like the fish that needs the water..once i was content that maybe we can sustain in this way and that one day she will finally accept me but then after swimming in the water for so long, i am feeling tired..

she doesn't know that if she was willing, i would have flown off just to see her..she doesn't know how painstakingly i folded the one thousand paper stars in camp and everybody in my bunk just looked at me as if i am a lunatic..she doesn't know that everytime when valentine's day is here, i would always try to send her a present and on her birthday too...she doesn't know that...maybe beacuse i was only foolishly waiting on the same spot..i always hope that a girl would not wait for me because she would feel sad and lonely, i would rather be the one alone and wait in the shadows till one day she knows that i am always there

but three years is three years, finally this year, i forgot to send her a present for valentine's day, i forgot to pass her a christmas gift..i realise that maybe i am losing this so called love for her..maybe it is time that i learn to forget

it should be sufficient to know that both of us are somewhere in this world living healthily and happily..i think that is enough

sometimes love is about letting go and even in the past i have tried and failed, this time, i will understand that letting go is prob the best for both of us.

btw happy birthday to ms li jiaqi my beloved sister in lafayette haha

and also hopefully my friends from overseas can quickly come back to visit soon =)