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managed to survive my first week in sispec
i in bravo company
met very very cool frens there and jonny is in my section
i feel so happy got a lot of people to talk to lol
heard that bravo is quite physically strenuous
i hope i can survive future weeks
why are you so dao today..talk to you only get one-liner
sigh =(
ok i am feeling crappy and sleepy now need to book in on sunday again lol
hopefully next week will get better

going Sispec tmr
haha
hope that it will be ok
take care guys

sigh...
is it because everytime i ask you out, i am unlucky to pick a time that you are not free or that you just don't want to go out with me?
when i asked you last time, you said you will tell me when you are free...
and now..i have waited for more than two weeks without getting a reply....
i have given up...my time is up...i wish i could wait but the time doesn't permit...
is it because i have express my liking for you that now we are doomed to play hide-and-seek? you never even reply to my message when i asked you that question..

当我爱上你时，我愿意奉献我的全部的心，凭着真诚与执著，爱护着你，以你的幸福为首要顾念
do you understand i hope to be your angel..but i wonder if you will ever let me be there for you...

maybe it will take a miracle..maybe i should just give up...

anyway wanna go watch leap years..anyone interested can tell me...
sigh...
dunno why maybe when you can't have romance you desire to watch it and feel the love in the air lol...
haha anyway the movie is quite good or so i heard lol
so should watch and support local production
i feel liek watching rule no.1 too lol

haha

to those who are wondering
i am ok..not emotionally unstable..though i feel quite down but i am ok..seriously ok..
anyway that is only to those very precious few lol

the taiwanese election is coming up..my sister is very excited about it..
she seems to hate some particular candidate while i don't care...
i doubt my ex-GP teacher mr lim will approve of my apathy towards politics but heck care..i don't need to do GP now =)..whereas my sister is vehemently attacking some candidate lol...

ok..i have POPed for abt close to a week..so yup doing nothing much except visiting some bars and meeting frens at class outing...
lol
first i went crazy elephant at clarke quay..sorry to say the service was completely lousy..the waitress can't really understand english very well and was quite impatient =(
she keep coming back at us to bug us to order new stuffs..sigh...maybe it is just her..lol...or maybe we are just too poor to order more expensive stuff like singapore sling? haha well ns men don't earn much
secondly i went to harry's? at holland village cos my fren worked there..haha not being biased or what but her bar is much better at least got premier league football and noone keeps bugging me to get drinks..not that she will dare to lol and the cider she recommended taste good..sourish but still good..

finally went class sleepover..haha watched two towers and saw most of the people collapsed and snuggled up at the sofa..before the movie ended lol..slept for like 1 plus hours only and went to check up on those who played halo..they were sleeping already but the room was very cold and they didn't use blankets..sigh so i went to help cover them up =).. so that they don't catch a cold lol..

NUS open house yesterday..quite cool..but i went lotsa times so not very interestoing to me already and my balloon is already deflated..

that's the summary of my week..

sigh the person never reply me again...i asked if the answer was the same and the person refused to send me back the answer..so i took it to be the same..i know i am not a likeable guy and will never be to that person

never mind..i already expected such an outcome..so what else can i still hope for...
nothingness in my heart..so just let go...i will try to..

cumulative annoyance..
quite a cheem word that i have learnt today..maybe that describes me! a person who easily lapses into cumulative annoyance, that is i will annoy other people and irritate people easily with my constant buggings..
yeah..so from now on i better learn how to shut my trap..since people don't like me to talk..and don't like me to ask questions..i shan't do so..
just shut up! that's what i should do right?
sigh..even if i am concern about you, even if i say i misses you, honestly, do you care? or you just think i am crazy? maybe i think the answer is latter..
everytime i bare my feelings to someone..what i get will just be a cold shoulder in the future..maybe we even lost each other as friends!...how many times have i asked for a girl's hand and it ends up we will never ever talk to each other again..
am i that annoying and scary? maybe i am. andreas is right..i shouldn't brood over it..i am just immature..
do you think i dare tell you how i feel now...i don't want to lose you too much and all i can do is bottle this up..
when i saw you feeling jubilant, i wanted to hug you...but i didn't, knowing that your joy is yours, you will not share it with me..there are other people who you care more...i am just a normal person around..you will have a special one to celebrate with and i am not that guy

random stuff:
If you need a handsome boyfriend
i shouldn't be the one here
if you need an officer boyfriend
then i shouldn't be here

if you need a rich kid boyfriend
i shouldn't be here
if you need an athletic boyfriend
then i shouldn't be here

when you are down
i will be here by your side
leding you a shoulder for you to cry
but when you are celebrating
i sit aside
watching you from afar

do you know that i cheered for you
do you care about my feeelings at all
when i am down do you know
when i am happy would you give me a chance to celebrate with you
maybe it will be a miracle

i was just your sparetyre
while you continue to hunt for the better
i will always be the reserve
who will ever like me

noone care about my feelins
they used my heart and then they return it
tell me now what can i do
i am so hurt
i have no strength to love anymore

let me go
why can't you just leave me alone
if i messaged you just don't give me any hope

please..so what if i am heartbroken..c'est la vie...who will care? you have already trampled all over it, do you still want to crush it somemore..and stab your knife into all the chambers and ventricles? my heart doesn't exist anymore...so just leave me alone and let me be lonely by myself..