it has been a long time since i last blogged...

well certain things i try to forget and after such a long time, i think i know how to put it behind my back and move on...

anyway...alright after such a long while, the body starts to malfunction again...suffering from a sore throat right now and feeling not really good...mid-terms are in around a week's time and really feel unlucky to be sick now...

well never mind, i will hang in there...just like i have always done...no concern is fine by me...i am a big guy, i will self-heal without other's help...well when i am tired, i have to hang on myself..who will give me the encouragement or who will take care and be concern?? well i don't want my family folks to be worried...so i will just do my best to get myself right again....visit the doctor on monday is probably a good idea...

sometimes i wonder if i am a bad guy..i know i am terrible to be with..never nice..perhaps that's how i feel all the time...sometimes you wonder if being concern about others is good..maybe i should care more about myself, because ends up hurting myself all the time...being aloof is perhaps what i should learn..just do what i need to do and stop being foolish..my concern is never appreciated so what....maybe like that i would feel better if noone reciprocates the kindness..ha

like i say..i am the big brother..so i will hang on...i will stay cheerful and optimistic...when i am feeling low, just hide one corner and self-heal..that is probably the super power i should have now...no need radioactivity dust, i know i have already mastered this skill...

ok time to sleep...after waking up tmr, i shall be a strong man again