final closure

能不能让我陪着你走 既然你说留不住你 回去的路有些黑暗 担心让你一个人走

would you wait for me for 7 years?

would you treasure the time, though short while, that we spent together...

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的

i have the answers to your questions already, i should be feeling contented..because our friendship is still intact but frankly speaking, i still feel kind of disappointed that we have to stay like this...maybe you are right, friendship last longer than romance but i think if we put in the effort, we can have a future together though it be fraught with challenges, whether by distance or time...maybe i am still too innocent when it comes to relationships that i though things would be simple as long as both parties put in the effort but guess that's not true..

是不是可以牵你的手啊 从来没有这样要求 怕你难过转身就走 那就这样吧我会了解的

when u told me ur answer last night and made your stand clear to me, i was upset, hearbroken, i felt pain in my left ventricle and just felt like closing my eyes and sleeping off every sorrow in my bones, yet i could not fall asleep..i just stayed awake throughout the night, thinking,..yup you may laugh at me for being foolish and that i should just let it go, but i guess i need time and everytime i fell in love, i need a long time to recover...i am not a flirt and i treat every chance with yous eriously, maybe there might be misunderstandings but please believe me that my heart was filled to the brim by you already..

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解 我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切 你又狠狠逼退 我的防备 静静关上门来默数我的泪

whenever i read something good, i want to share with you, any problems you encounter i would try to help you and i just hope that you can feel comfortable and happy with me so that things would slowly develop out..but maybe fate has a cruel twist that give me no time and that i have to confess so shortly even though when i leave, i leave to pursue my dream...maybe that is one challenge that i did not foresee...or naively thought we can overcome as long as we have an agreement, just like in drama or novel..but that is not true in reality..

如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱 就让我用一生等待 如果深情往事你已不再留恋 就让它随风飘远 如果大海能够带走我的哀愁 就像带走每条河流 所有受过的伤 所有流过的泪 我的爱 请全部带走

well..i know i will need sometime to recover and yup i know i will treat ypu as friends from now on, so do not worry and do not feel awkward..i really never ever regretted knowing you or even liking you even though it had only be unrequited...

please take care of yourself and i sincerely hope that u can stay happy and cheerful in your studies and also really if fate comes knocking on your door, i wish you all blessings...

i know time will heal all wounds but my heart has been broken so many times before already, now that it breaks, it will take sometime to heal...

ok i think i have emo enough already, time to stop griping and go exercise le =)

ciao, till the next time i blog again bah

lyrics of "Think of me"

Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me

We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the way things
might have been . . .

Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard
to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do -
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you . . .