decisions

now i am at the crossroads of my life!
for my higher studies:

option 1: stay in singapore, study at NTU, take the biochemistry and traditional chinese medicine double degree
advantages- can probably study medicine in the NUS-Duke medical school for post-graduate or go US do post-grad in medicine
disadvantage: i need a change of environment and this course takes too long..

option 2: apply medicine in germany
advantage: can go germany my dream destination and yeah study there and give myself exposure
disadvantage: expensive due to living costs and might not get in?

option 3: apply medicine in Taiwan
adavantage: cheap and quality of study is there
disadavantage: i will most like stay there and yup..settle down back where i came from since i won't be taking up singaporean citizenship and most likely stay with my family
currently this is also my best viable option to study medicine

option 4: hope that MOE give me scholarship go study linguistics in german in germany
advantage: go germany study for free and can travel around
disadvantage: how to get the scholarship when competition is so fierce..and being a teacher is my last career option

option 5: forget about medicine..let's study aeronautical engineering..in US or UK?
advantage: well teh course seems easier to get in and more universities to choose from..
disadavantage: money where art thou? scholarship? or bank loan..and for US my SAT needs major improvements man

so many choices..so many decisions to make..i am totally lost..is it because i am not focus enough in my career options...

sigh

i just went to watch black book..a very cool movie..
and i also watched narnia with alex lol

but as i walk alone on the streets...a sense of loneliness still engulf me..
maybe because i know...

let me go
let me be free
i shan't think of you anymore...

let me go
let me be free
i shan't be totured nomore


in this lonely lonely world
my heart is sore
i am sure that i saw
that my frozen heart will not taw..

this phone call
by the sea shore
will bring me forever more
heartbreaks